The Invitation to the Creative Process continues....
One of the principals of the intuitive creative process is to address the place of most resistance. This week, I learned why that is important.
After my first painting experience, I knew intuitively that I needed to continue this expression, this exploration. I began to look at the many different opportunities that my teacher was offering. One struck me. Painting my chakras. Yet, I resisted. I resisted in so many ways. I resisted the 6 month commitment that it would entail. Every time I would look over the options, I would land on the chakras and then quickly close my computer and walk away. Then, my teacher began posting the invitation on Facebook and it would pop up on my wall. And I would resist.
It is hard work to resist the invitation of the Holy. It takes a great deal of personal energy to move against the flow of Energy. I began to realize that I was tired, sleeping more, laying on the couch watching more TV, dying that slow Critic death.
I don’t know what made me finally sign up. But one morning I told my spouse I was signing up, opened my computer, signed up and sent it before I thought about it. Put all the dates in my calendar and went off to Starbucks for a chai tea and scone. And something released again. Energy started to flow....
Now, being me, the theologian and thinker, I had to “prepare” for this painting experience. I researched my root chakra. I learned as much about what it governs and how to open it as I could. I surrounded myself with red (its color). I grounded myself by eating root vegetables and lavender chocolate (yummiest chocolate ever!). I soaked in lavender baths. I walked and walked and walked. And, as I always do, I began to dream in images and began to wonder if those images were going to show in this painting experience.
My teacher began the evening by talking about the vision she received to offer these classes. She talked about how she received this vision to explore and paint our chakras and believe that each energy will further unleash our authentic self and really bring us to a FULLNESS of being. Or at least that’s what I heard her say. She is so right. The next six months are going to bring this vision that is bursting out of me to its fullness and me to mine.
When I painted my inner goddess a few weeks back, I put rays moving out from the middle. I painted each of the rays a different color; which upon researching chakras realized are the various different chakras (for the most part). This is what I found most interesting about painting my root chakra...
I brought it home and laid it out on my floor to look at. I laid it out in front of my first painting (which is hanging on my living room wall). I noticed ONE thing straight away. The red ray on my Inner Goddess turned into the expression of bursting forth out and brought me to the tree, to the vision that is the Sabbath Center.
I looked at my root chakra and it was a volcano of red bursting out --- bursting out so much that I had to add more and more paper to express the explosion. Bursting forth from this meadow of growth and the Holy and movement and beauty.
It feels like a volcano -- this bursting forth of the Holy; this coming to fruition of the Sabbath Center. The more I talk about it with people; the more I share my vision; the more I hear how much it is needed in this world; how much people are seeking that creative connection and experience with the Holy.
I have had this sense building in me that there is no containing the Sabbath Center. There is no containing and boxing in my spirit. There is no stopping this ball that has begun to roll in my life -- this star that has burst forth into tremendous Holy Energy.
The more I allow it to burst forth; the more I follow the energy; the more happiness and contentment that I experience. I feel like now, in the midst of huge transformation and huge transition and instability and risk -- now I feel most happy, most alive, most excited, most focused.
I sat down on my red couch (ironic yes) and soaked in the vision that was before me. I sat and watched how the Inner Goddess brought from this expression of my Root Chakra. And I am excited to see what more will come this month as I dive deep into this painting, into this volcano exploding forth, and allow it to come to its fullest understanding in my soul.